I know I have written about my depression and anxiety issues before. I am not seeking attention of any kind, but this blog is essentially about my life and all the weirdness that comes with it. Well, depression is part of my life. I'll understand if you don't want to read about it, but sometimes it helps me to write it out. If you wanna skip this and come back another day that's totally cool.
Saturday I had a really hard day and spent the majority of the day in bed. I thought maybe I'd be ok on Sunday, at least I hoped I would be. I was ok at first. We went into church and sat through the sermon and half way through I started streaming tears. The pastor had told a sad story, it made me think of a loved one that is now in Heaven. So I sat there in service balling like a baby.
I managed to pull myself together enough that we were able to go to Sunday school. After Sunday school I told the Hubs I really needed to go home. We were supposed to go to my Parent's house to celebrate their anniversary. I just couldn't go.
I was so upset with myself the whole way home. I know I'm broken. I feel like Humpty Dumpty. No amount of attempts to fix me will ever put me together again like I should be. Oh trust me, the meds help. I would be 1,000 times worse without my meds. And I thank the Lord for them constantly. However, I know that this isn't normal and I wish so much that I could be normal.
I often tell the Hubs that I'm sorry that I'm broken. He always replies, "it's not something you can control. I understand." (He is such a wonderful man. I dare you to find a man 1/2 as wonderful.)
I am on the verge of rambling. So I think I'm going to stop here.
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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Monday, August 4, 2014
Friday, August 1, 2014
Love
Love has become something our society takes lightly. We hear people say things like, "I fell so deeply in love with them." Or, "one day we woke up and realized we had fallen out of love." I have heard these so often and just dismissed them as most everyone does anymore. But when you take a moment to stop and really think about it, it's a load of CRAP!
People, Love is not a feeling. Sure, when you start a new relationship you get all gooey inside when he says you look pretty, or he holds your hand, or having your first kiss (I have to speak from a girl's perspective here, because I'm a girl and I have NO IDEA what goes on in a guy's head). That stuff is fun and incredible and makes our girlie, little hearts go pitter pat. However, that is not love. That my darlings, is infatuation. Infatuation does go away. Those feelings become more dulled, because they are normal and comfortable. If you're lucky those feelings develop into something so sweet and precious you can't help but want to hold on with everything you have.
Love is being there when your husband (again speaking from the girl's perspective, because it's really the only one I can give) is puking at 3 am and trying to help him, while he lays on the bathroom floor telling you to leave him alone and let him die. (Not over dramatic at all...... ;) Love is keeping your mouth shut when you really, really, really want to tell him he's doing something wrong.
Love is being kind when your husband is grouchy. (Honestly, I think I get more grouchy than he does, so in this case he loves me waaaayyyyy more ;) It is embodied when you know your husband is hurting in some way and you know you can't fix it, all you can do is hug him and hold him and tell him that you love him.
These things take WORK. Love is not a feeling that you fall into and fall out of. Love is a choice! You choose to be kind, sweet, hold your tongue, not being annoyed because your husband didn't do something the minute you asked him to (he's not your kid, he doesn't have to "obey" right away...). I'm not gonna lie, there will be days when you wanna strangle your husband or your kids or whomever. It happens, but even on those days choose to love them. You don't have to trip over yourself to make grand gestures to them just love them any way you know how. (No, you can't love someone with throwing a chair at their face or anything like that ;)
Today choose to love those around you. Don't give up when it gets rough, because guess what? Life gets hard!
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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People, Love is not a feeling. Sure, when you start a new relationship you get all gooey inside when he says you look pretty, or he holds your hand, or having your first kiss (I have to speak from a girl's perspective here, because I'm a girl and I have NO IDEA what goes on in a guy's head). That stuff is fun and incredible and makes our girlie, little hearts go pitter pat. However, that is not love. That my darlings, is infatuation. Infatuation does go away. Those feelings become more dulled, because they are normal and comfortable. If you're lucky those feelings develop into something so sweet and precious you can't help but want to hold on with everything you have.
Love is being there when your husband (again speaking from the girl's perspective, because it's really the only one I can give) is puking at 3 am and trying to help him, while he lays on the bathroom floor telling you to leave him alone and let him die. (Not over dramatic at all...... ;) Love is keeping your mouth shut when you really, really, really want to tell him he's doing something wrong.
Love is being kind when your husband is grouchy. (Honestly, I think I get more grouchy than he does, so in this case he loves me waaaayyyyy more ;) It is embodied when you know your husband is hurting in some way and you know you can't fix it, all you can do is hug him and hold him and tell him that you love him.
These things take WORK. Love is not a feeling that you fall into and fall out of. Love is a choice! You choose to be kind, sweet, hold your tongue, not being annoyed because your husband didn't do something the minute you asked him to (he's not your kid, he doesn't have to "obey" right away...). I'm not gonna lie, there will be days when you wanna strangle your husband or your kids or whomever. It happens, but even on those days choose to love them. You don't have to trip over yourself to make grand gestures to them just love them any way you know how. (No, you can't love someone with throwing a chair at their face or anything like that ;)
Today choose to love those around you. Don't give up when it gets rough, because guess what? Life gets hard!
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Not Working
Sweet pea is such a little character. She has started telling me things "aren't working" when they aren't doing what she thinks they should be doing.
For example, the other morning Sweet pea was eating a bowl of cheerios. She was getting close to the bottom of the bowl. She was having trouble getting the last few cheerios onto her spoon. She was very exasperated! She looked over at me and said, "Mommy, cereal is not working!"
Hahaha! She's a nut. Gotta love the way their little minds work.
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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For example, the other morning Sweet pea was eating a bowl of cheerios. She was getting close to the bottom of the bowl. She was having trouble getting the last few cheerios onto her spoon. She was very exasperated! She looked over at me and said, "Mommy, cereal is not working!"
Hahaha! She's a nut. Gotta love the way their little minds work.
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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Monday, July 28, 2014
Legoland
Firecracker has been begging to go to Legoland since his friend, O,
went for his birthday about 2 years ago. Finally, last week My Mama and I took him. Well, actually we took Firecracker, Sweet pea, Princess and Tank. Oh the fun they had!
They got to visit the land of Chima, which I'm still not entirely sure what that is. Obviously it's some kind of Lego thing, but since Firecracker isn't THAT into Legos yet I am happily out of the loop on that one. They got to ride a real roller coaster. They got to play in a splash park, and drive real(ish) cars and boats!
The 4 kids had a fantastic time. My Mama and I had fun watching them have so much fun. The not great part was the heat. Man was it hot.
Here are some pictures of our fun day:
Good times!
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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went for his birthday about 2 years ago. Finally, last week My Mama and I took him. Well, actually we took Firecracker, Sweet pea, Princess and Tank. Oh the fun they had!
They got to visit the land of Chima, which I'm still not entirely sure what that is. Obviously it's some kind of Lego thing, but since Firecracker isn't THAT into Legos yet I am happily out of the loop on that one. They got to ride a real roller coaster. They got to play in a splash park, and drive real(ish) cars and boats!
The 4 kids had a fantastic time. My Mama and I had fun watching them have so much fun. The not great part was the heat. Man was it hot.
Here are some pictures of our fun day:
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| One of the best parts was that most rides had a little area like this for the kids to play in while the adults waited in line for the ride. The kids were MUCH happier playing for 20 minutes than standing in line for 20 minutes! |
Good times!
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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Friday, July 25, 2014
A Special Kind of Stupid
We've already talked about how I'm an idiot.
Well, I have taken my stupidity one step further. The other day I was multitasking like any good mommy does. I was in a hurry and I needed to super glue something, and I needed to eat something so I was eating a sandwich.
I had the sandwich in one hand and the super glue in the other. The glue started to drip so I wiped it up. Right about then my sandwich started to slip so I stuck it in my mouth. I finished the gluing and went into the kitchen to put every thing away.
About that time I thought, "hmm why is the bread sticking to the back of my teeth?" After further inspection it turns out that it wasn't bread stuck to the back of my teeth, but super glue! I guess some how I managed to get some super glue on my sandwich!
This kind of stuff can only happen to me!!
On the bright side, I now know that if you get super glue on your teeth you can get rid of it by letting butter sit on it and then scrub it with a cloth. However, you have to repeat this LOTS of times. Ugh, last night I ended up eating more butter than even Paul Dean would even want!
Have a great day... And steer clear of sandwiches with super glue on them!
Ms. T
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Well, I have taken my stupidity one step further. The other day I was multitasking like any good mommy does. I was in a hurry and I needed to super glue something, and I needed to eat something so I was eating a sandwich.
I had the sandwich in one hand and the super glue in the other. The glue started to drip so I wiped it up. Right about then my sandwich started to slip so I stuck it in my mouth. I finished the gluing and went into the kitchen to put every thing away.
About that time I thought, "hmm why is the bread sticking to the back of my teeth?" After further inspection it turns out that it wasn't bread stuck to the back of my teeth, but super glue! I guess some how I managed to get some super glue on my sandwich!
This kind of stuff can only happen to me!!
On the bright side, I now know that if you get super glue on your teeth you can get rid of it by letting butter sit on it and then scrub it with a cloth. However, you have to repeat this LOTS of times. Ugh, last night I ended up eating more butter than even Paul Dean would even want!
Have a great day... And steer clear of sandwiches with super glue on them!
Ms. T
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Wednesday, July 23, 2014
The Bath Tub
The bath tub is a magical place. The kids LOVE to take baths. However, I'm not excited to deal with 30 minutes of bath time right before bed. By the time it's 30 minutes til bed time I'm more than ready to get the kids showered and into bed.
The solution? Bath time in the morning. I know they are not squeaky clean at night time right before they get into their beds, however, they are happy because they get nice looooonnng bath times and I get close to an hour (each kid gets around 30 minutes of tub time, including the actual washing of themselves) of no fighting.
"No fighting? Ms. T, how do you manage that?" You may ask. Well, if you think about it, there can be only 1 child in the tub at a time. Therefore, one is bathing and playing and having a grand ol' time, while the other is playing with toys and such all by themselves. Voila! No fighting!!!
At this point in the summer, the kids are sick of each other. They are fine if we are busy going somewhere, or they are doing a craft. However, it's just not feasible to be able to go somewhere every single day. And there are some days I just plain don't want to deal with a craft or some other activity that I have to set up, over see and clean up. I know I'm a terrible mother.
Anyway, every once in a while a nice bath day is just what we all need! =)
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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The solution? Bath time in the morning. I know they are not squeaky clean at night time right before they get into their beds, however, they are happy because they get nice looooonnng bath times and I get close to an hour (each kid gets around 30 minutes of tub time, including the actual washing of themselves) of no fighting.
"No fighting? Ms. T, how do you manage that?" You may ask. Well, if you think about it, there can be only 1 child in the tub at a time. Therefore, one is bathing and playing and having a grand ol' time, while the other is playing with toys and such all by themselves. Voila! No fighting!!!
At this point in the summer, the kids are sick of each other. They are fine if we are busy going somewhere, or they are doing a craft. However, it's just not feasible to be able to go somewhere every single day. And there are some days I just plain don't want to deal with a craft or some other activity that I have to set up, over see and clean up. I know I'm a terrible mother.
Anyway, every once in a while a nice bath day is just what we all need! =)
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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Monday, July 21, 2014
867-5309
Firecracker has reached that age where he needs to start memorizing phone numbers and street addresses. We started working on memorizing my phone number the other day and he wasn't getting it. He would get the numbers mixed up or forget how to start.
After several tries I had an idea. I remembered learning that if you learn something through song it sticks in your memory. Using this theory, I decided to put MY phone number to the tune of 867-5309. You know what? Within 10 minutes Firecracker could sing my number to you!
Thank you, Tommy Tutone, for making a song with a phone number already in it so I didn't have to try and make one up on the fly!
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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After several tries I had an idea. I remembered learning that if you learn something through song it sticks in your memory. Using this theory, I decided to put MY phone number to the tune of 867-5309. You know what? Within 10 minutes Firecracker could sing my number to you!
Thank you, Tommy Tutone, for making a song with a phone number already in it so I didn't have to try and make one up on the fly!
Have a great day!
Ms. T
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