Sad

The Hubs and I have decided not to have any more babies.  There are many considerations involved in this decision.  Not the least of which is all the things I've been struggling with from the depression (that coincidentally pregnancy brought on and made nearly unbearable).  

Most of the time I am fine with this decision.  I have to be.  But today I'm sad.  I really would like more children, but it isn't meant to be for us.  It's one more thing depression has robbed from me.  It makes me upset to see people that are obviously unfit parents that have children.  Because (don't take this as bragging) we are darn good parents!  I want to run over and scoop up those babies that are being abused or neglected and take them home with me.  But that's not the way it works.

I try most of the time not to be jealous of other people that don't suffer from depression, because as a wise friend told me, "everyone has bad stuff happen to them.  Some have cancer, some loose their parents, or their children."  I would rather have depression than other terrible things that could have been dealt to me.  

Sorry to put a damper on anyone's day.  

I hope you all have a great day!
Ms. T    


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